Sunday, March 30, 2008

Weekend Too Short

As usual, this weekend was too short. It's already Sunday night and I wish I had a day or two more off. I got stuff accomplished this weekend. I got some non-toxic cleaner stuff and cleaned the upstairs bathroom. It worked well, and smells WONDERFUL! Mrs. Meyers Clean Day cleaners. I also went out and did some yard work today. It's so overwhelming! There is so much to rake and bag and seed and water and mow and rake some more. But I am starting at least. Maybe before summer I will have the leaves all picked up. I wish I had $600 dollars to buy a walk-behind yard vac. I have a leaf blower/vac, but we just have SO much more than I think that thing can handle vacuuming up and mulching.

I have a couple of topics to write about this week. One is an idea from an article I read this week. The other is sort of an article. I am hoping to write a draft of an article and then hone it and...I dunno. I would love to be able to write semi-professionally. I dunno. Maybe I will write the article and try and see if anyone would want to publish it. We shall see.

Anyway, that was my weekend. How was yours?

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Hope for this country...

This is exactly the type of thing that I would LIKE TO SEE AND READ ABOUT IN THE NEWS EVERY DAMN DAY!!! This is the type of thing that renews my faith that most people are good. And honestly, I think if we heard about and read more news like this, it would inspire more people to take that extra step for a stranger every day. Maybe not give a kidney, but smile and say thank you, or let the car in front of you go first, etc.

I think there are more people out there that would do things like this than we all think. But tragedy, death, murder and bad news SELLS, so that is what the news outlets report larger and more prominently than stuff like this.

Think I'm going to write a letter. :-)

Happy Birthday Jenny!!!

Posted to my LJ on March 25th, 2008 at 10:14 pm

To one of the strongest, most cheery, giving, hardworking and beautiful women I know!!

May your birthday be lovely and wonderful. May you get many birthday wishes and at least one Very Cool Present. May this be the beginning of a productive year of progress for you in every way - personally, professionally, spiritually, intellectually, emotionally, etc.

Know that there are people in your life that love you and appreciate you and always think that, even with all your foibles, you do a great job living a pretty damn good life!

Love you sweetie! SMOOCHIES!

Monday, March 24, 2008

Sensitive system

Posted to my LJ on March 24, 2008, 23:57

Sometimes, without warning, I get sensitive. In the belly. So I take many trips. To the bathroom. I hate when this happens. It's annoying, to say the least. And painful and exhausting. After these "episodes", I feel like I got hit by a mack truck, or repeatedly punched in the gut.

Starting last night, I had an "episode". I have no idea if it was food or a one day bug or what. So I stayed home today, after being up several times overnight and continuing this morning. After things finally calmed down, I slept like a rock.

All I can say is that Immodium Advanced, the chewable kind, is a gift from the gods!

So now I am off to bed. Here's hoping this doesn't happen again for a long time!!

Favorite Easter cartoon ever

Posted to my LJ on March, 21, 2008, 16:51

So Happy Easter to everyone!! Woo, chocolate bunnies!!


Apparently, I am going to sing in a karaoke studio thingy tonight. And try to avoid being recorded (no offense, girls!)

And then tomorrow, the Sexy Pandas reunite and continue the ZOO TOUR!! ROCK ON BABY!!!


Thursday, March 20, 2008

posty post post

I lack much to post about, so I write just to fill up some space.

Hi everyone!! How is your day going? What is making you smile today? What is making you pissed off? Let's share!!

Hugs to the internets!

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

not the head

So here's how you know something's wrong with you.

You make tentative plans with a friend that then become solid. You are going to hang out for a weekend, but not the entire weekend, because the last day of the weekend the friend has family stuff to do. No biggie. The friend can arrive anytime because they are not tied down to a departure time. Loose plans are made to do fun things, but nothing specific or rock-solid.

Later in the week, you get an IM from another friend mentioning something about hanging our this weekend. Just as you are about to say you have plans with visiting friend, they ask if you got the e-mail. So you say no and go check your e-mail. You have an e-mail from a different friend saying something about the friend who is coming to spend time with you (and the one that just IM'd you) wanting to spend time with them.

Here is where things go awry.

Your first thought is: Well, if she wanted to go hang out with that other friend, why did she accept MY invitation?

Then you re-read the e-mail and see that you are also invited, as you are included on the e-mail and also asked if you have other plans already with the visiting friend.

Your next thought is: They all obviously already MADE plans to hang out with each other last weekend when they all spent time together. I was not involved in those plans, nor was I told about them when I spoke to visiting friend. So it seems I am an afterthought.

You try to work through these thoughts and figure out why you feel this way. Clearly a gut reaction. Clearly not entirely rational. But it's the way you feel. You feel like visiting friend doesn't really want to spend time with you, she wants to spend time with the other friends. And the only reason they asked you along was because visiting friend told them she was going to be visiting you. So leaving you out wouldn't be very polite. You try to think about how you could decline and they could go on their merry way and have their desired night out. You feel tiny and unimportant. You feel somehow rejected. It all makes little sense, but it makes total sense. In your head.

Then you write about it in your LiveJournal.


A few updates on stuff:

Reducing dosage of meds to wean off them is not fun. Headaches, nausea, diarrhea - these are just a few of the fun symptoms. Oh yeah, and falling asleep at my desk. That's fun too.

Spring is TOMORROW, people! Let's stop now with the freezing rain and the 30 degrees, shall we?

Drama. Dra-mah!

Dogs get pissed off too.

I still work for someone who knows less than I do. Yesterday I told him how to install Windows Updates on a Terminal Server. Granted, we had the Auto Update Service disabled. But all I did was follow the instructions on the Windows Update page when it would not load my updates. It told me to set the service to Auto and Start it. So I did. Lo and behold - it worked. He did not do this. He thought he would have to make some group policy or some complicated crap like that. Apparently he has never heard of Ockham's Razor.

Someday I will own a tiny little kitten and name it "Nugget". Or maybe I will name my next dog that name instead. Either way, it's a painfully cute name.

Heather Mills is certifiably insane.

My co-worker is going to incite homicidal rage in me if he keeps listening to the John Denver/Gordon Lightfoot/Edelweiss/Ave Maria/Don't Cry For Me Argentina streaming radio channel.

Xander has one of those lives you just can't make up. Between delivery truck accidents, psycho girlfriends and being kicked to the curb while visiting a friend - it's really book material! He should write a book!

I would like to take a nap right now, under my desk. Just an hour, that's all I need...

Freecycle is a great concept, but I think too many people use it as their personal yard sale to get rid of CRAP, not give away perfectly good usable stuff because they no longer need it.

I missed a day on here. I need to stop missing days and just post every damn day!

I can't think of anymore updates presently.

Rainbow kitty

Posted to my LJ on March 17, 2008, 09:57 am

So I am driving to work this morning and I get into the city. I end up at a light behind a car that has this sticker on the back:

The only thing I could think (whether it's because I am dead tired or just my normal morning pokeyness) they have "gay cat" stickers now? Does that mean her cat is gay? Rainbow kitty? Gay kitty?

I tried to take a picture of it with my phone, but my ineptitude shone brightly as I gazed upon the lovely picture of my dashboard.

So I got here and decided to look it up on Google and find a picture to add here.

Makes my brain kitty sticker. *insert creeped out noises here*

Saturday, March 15, 2008


Nothing like a trip to the clothing store to motivate me to lose weight. I really cannot explain it any better than that.

I am enjoying visiting here in NJ. I also remembered that I need to write up some stuff on the popular social networking websites for my sister-in-law. I will be starting working on that now.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Puppy withdrawal

So I am visiting my brother for the weekend and we could not bring the pups. He has a small bebbe and our littlest pup still does the snappy thing sometimes. Plus she is still not 100% housebroken and they don’t want puppy pee (or ANY pee) on the floor that the bebbe will be rolling around on (not quite crawling yet, but close!)

So I am missing my puppies. I would like to be in bed with them snuggling next to me right this very minute. I would like to sleep in late tomorrow with one tucked up behind my knees as I sleep on my side, and when I turn over to the other side, see the other one with her head poked out of the covers sleeping like a little person.

I’ll live.

But I do think I am going to head to bed just about now. I woke up about every hour on the hour last night. 12:00 am, 1:00 am, 2:30 am, 3:30 am, 4:30 am and 6:00 am before my alarm went off at 7:30 am. What. The. Fuck. So I am goddamn tired AND cranky.

SO! With that, I sign off and go to sleepy-sleep!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Coping with life

Today, this week, I am coping. Getting by. Dealing with it. My brain is not working the way it should and I am having a pretty steady dialogue with myself about it this week. No, not schizophrenic dialog. I'm not hearing voices. I am just keeping it together by having little chats with my wacky brain.

Meds are not so wonderful things sometimes. Time for a new one. That's what this is all about. Wean off one, try another.

Flargen blarg.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

It's not fiction, I can't make this up!

Actual excerpt from e-mail:
(Names and company have been changed. Per normal, the e-mail chain starts at the bottom.)

From: me
Sent: Wednesday, March 12, 2008 2:36 PM
To: Sysadmin
Subject: RE:

yes, check her signature. new employee, started Monday

IT Helpdesk

From: SysAdmin
Sent: Wednesday, March 12, 2008 2:36 PM
To: me
Subject: RE:

Is she staff?

Systems Administrator
IT Department
Company Name
Company Address
Cell: 401-555-1111

From: me
Sent: Wednesday, March 12, 2008 2:17 PM
To: SysAdmin
Subject: FW:

We need to add her to the FM_Staff group for her to get this access, correct?

IT Helpdesk
(phone number)

From: Jane New-Employee
Sent: Wednesday, March 12, 2008 2:16 PM
To: me

IT - I am trying to schedule a conference room and it is coming back undeliverable saying no access allowed. Can you please look into and hook me up. Thanks.

Jane New-Employee, Project Manager
Department Name
Company Name and Address
Providence, RI 00000-0000

Tuesday, March 11, 2008


(insert string of expletives here)

Holy cheese and crackers!!!!!!

SysAdmin strikes again!

I ask him a simple question. He and some other people got new laptop setups (docking station, monitor, keyboard, etc.) to replace their regular desktop PC. I ran a report last week and the CPU speed showed as 777MHz. I ran the same report today and now the CPU speed shows as 1994MHz. The other four identical laptops we got at exactly the same time are still showing as 777MHz. So I sent him an e-mail (mind you he sits RIGHT NEXT TO ME, with half cube walls and all, but we e-mail each other all the time) asking him how he increased the speed, and maybe we should do it to the other laptops too.

He starts this back and forth with me like I am the goddamned Spanish Inquisition ("No one expects the Spanish Inquisition!") He asks me what do I mean; then if I am referring to "overclocking" or an incorrect speed setting; and then whether I am referring specifically to him or to all the laptops; that his laptop has not been on the network since last week; that our remote network management tool must be reading wrong; and finally that he didn't do anything to the machine that would have changed the CPU speed.


That was when he told me he didn't do anything that would have changed the CPU speed.



No one has had their hands on this laptop since we imaged it....except YOU. So, um, it would stand to reason, that, um, YOU DID IT - inadvertantly or not.

This fucking guy......what a maroon!

Monday, March 10, 2008

Yeah. This makes me happy.

Guess what we are drinking along with our 8 daily 8oz. glasses of water?

DRUGS!!! Woo!

Not the "fun", get-you-high-as-a-kite kind. Nope. We are getting tiny doses of anti-convulsants, mood stablilizers, antibiotics, cholesterol and heart medications. Of course, there is no *IMMEDIATE* danger from all of this. So don't worry, be happy.

However, obviously long term studies on this have not been done. Mainly because they only recently got a clue to test our drinking water for things like this. But the short term lab tests indicate kidney development issues, breast cancer effects, etc. Read the article. It's there.

And guess what? Not only does drinking bottled water cost a lot of money and create more landfill waste, but the drug traces could be in that special bottled water too!! Woot!

Am I supposed to love my government for this? F-D-A = FOOD AND DRUG ADMINISTRATION. It's their job to find things like this and stop them from happening or remedy the situation to prevent the American people from harm. Yeah, I'm an idealist. I would like my government to do what they say they are going to do.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Spring Forward aka: lose an hour!

So this weekend we sprung forward, thus losing an hour. An hour of sleep, an hour of life, an hour of whatever. I know why they do it, but its still a weird concept. As weird as changing time zones when you actually drive through them. Suddenly, its an hour earlier. Just a second ago, it was 9:00 pm and now its 8:00 pm. It is a pretty surreal feeling.

I haven't got much more than that. The work week is beginning again tomorrow. *sigh* I wish I had a boatload of time off from work. I am just generally tired.

One other thing, I went to a wake today. The wife of someone at work. Very nice guy from the trades shops. She was 57 and died in her sleep. Probably congestive heart failure, but the husband didn't want to have an autopsy. Sad though. She was not sick or anything, though she had some health issues. I just felt very sad for him. Nicest guy. Saw a bunch of people from work there too.

Just makes you think, that's all.

whipping wind

Posted to my LJ on March 6th, 2008 at 10:56 pm

March coming in like a lion once again. I went out to give my pups a bathroom break and ended up taking them on a nice walk because it was so damn warm outside! This weather is bizarre. It was pouring rain since last night around 9pm. Then today, it got very warm, must have been almost 60 degrees. The wind has been so loud it's like a truck driving by the house.

I can't wait for spring to be here in full force. I would like to put my winter coat away and think about painting my toenails again!

Time for some puppy snuggling and sleep!

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Music - yeah!!!

Driving to work this morning, I was treated to the following songs, in order:

The Ramones - Roch'n'Roll High School
The B-52's - Rock Lobster
Falco - Rock Me Amadeus
Cypress Hill - Rock Superstar
The Clash - Rock The Casbah

I love WBRU so much because they are truly independent. They still have a playlist and play a lot of the same "popular" alternative-rock songs fairly frequently. But they also do things like this. This week, they are doing an A to Z week, where they are playing their entire Playlist, from A to Z. I have to get a list of the songs, because they fucking rock!

It made me happy.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Gray area

It's hard to be me, to be human, to have emotions and emotional reactions to events in my life. For ANYONE, not just me. It's so frustrating when all the institutions that man has created - to manage his life, to create opportunity, to deal with finances, to make a living - are structured in a very black and white way, when human beings are about the farthest thing from black and white as you can get! It's either right or wrong, late or on time, accept or decline, approval or disapproval, honesty or dishonesty. It just seems that there are so many ways in which we try to make things clean cut for ourselves and I just think they all end up making life a living hell for us in the end.

I live in the gray. Everything about me is gray. There are shades of gray in everything I do and everything I see. But we are forced into these black and white boxes without being able to stay in the gray area. I really feel like this has to be one of the main reasons that people actually consider suicide. How long can you be forced to BE a certain way before it becomes impossible?

I am not even sure if this is all being explained right. But that is where I am today. Deeply entrenched in the gray, while being judged by the black and white standards.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008


The weather, that is. Today was, by far, the warmest day since the end of Autumn. Yay! Today it definitely felt like spring was breaking through.

And then it began to rain. Oh well. But it's still very mild out. Gonna get cold again tomorrow night again. C'mon spring!!!

So...I am now on Facebook. I was on it for all of an hour today maybe. I already LOVE it one-hundred-billion times more than MySpace, which sucks giant ass. MySpace has a million ads, it is confusing, non-intuitive, poorly organized and, to top it all off, UGLY (if you don't know CSS and have the ability/time/interest to design your own custom page.) Plus, I believe MySpace has adware or spyware for some of their advertisers. They suck. Facebook wins! I will probably keep my MySpace login; it already directs people away from there to my LJ or Blogger page. I state right there on my page that I don't use it.

The WAY I got on facebook is that my old friend Lars is on there and invited my friend Heather. She invited me and now I have 5 friends on there already: Lars, Heather, Nick, my niece and an old lione friend. I am going to tell anyone I know on MySpace to get themselves a Facebook login and drop MySpace. Woo!

Now, I shall settle in to watch some American Idol!! Guilty pleasure! Love this show!

I haz new washing machine!!!

Posted to my LJ on March 03, 2008, 10:57 pm

(Only about half of you will get that title, but that's okay, it made ma laugh!)

Glory be to the gods, I have a new washing machine!!! I cannot put into words how overjoyed and giddy I am that there is a working washer of clothing in my own house! I have been without one since the beginning of January and I think I did okay resigning myself to hitting the laundromat once a week with the essentials that had to be washed. It was when the puppies got sick a couple of weeks ago that I pretty much gave up. I did one more load of clothes and had "planned" to take two separate loads of linens and blankets to get done. But I just hate the laundromat so very much that I procrastinated and just never did it. And then Friday when I would have gone to the laundromat to do another load, I just didn't go. Not Saturday or Sunday either. But by Friday, I knew we were getting the washer because the taxes had come in. So I really had no reason to spend that 10 bucks on washloads when I knew I could do it at home in just a few short days.

Weeehooooooo!!!! I must share the sexyness that is my new washer!!

Monday, March 03, 2008

Cake and a card at work!

I got cake!!! C-A-K-E!!!!!

I am so happy! It totally, entirely, completely made my damn day!! I was not even thinking about it. My co-worker wished me HB in an e-mail over the weekend and I thought it was nice of him to remember. And then I was down working on someone's computer and she came upstairs with me "to talk to my co-worker about something" and, blam, there was my cake!! YAY!!!

And my co-worker went around to almost everyone here and got them to sign a card for me too. How damned awesome is that! After the shit I have had going on, it was really, really nice to have a little unsolicited positive attention from an unexpected place.

Last night we went to Chili's for my birthday dinner out. Nice big Margarita, sampler appetizer platter, then shrimp and chicken fajitas (Mmmmmm) and for dessert, we split a molten chocolate cake thingy. Super yum! I was so stuffed! I have not eaten like that in a very long time (and don't freak, it will not become a habit!) It was a nice treat!

Then we rented 'Michael Clayton'. Whoo. INTENSE movie! LOVED it. I didn't realize what it was about before. I thought it was a political story or a spy thing. Nope. George Clooney was fantastic. So was Tom Wilkinson, who I love. Everyone was good in it. And lots of actors I like (Tilda Swinton, Sydney Pollack). I highly recommend it.

Had a nice day yesterday and a nice day today. Woo for me!

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Happy Birthday to me

Text from Louli and Rob, LJ message from Jenny, voice mail from Tommy and the kids.

Not bad for before noon.

Thirty-eight. Sheesh. I still feel like a kid sometimes. Happily, I don't really look my age. more from me later probably.

wimping out

Posted to my LJ on Mar. 1st, 2008 at 10:50 pm

I was going to try and write a real entry today. But I am just without the wits to do it. I am spending the day hanging out with the puppies, relaxing and not thinking about money or mortgages. It snowed - AGAIN - last night. Fortunately, everything on the roads is already gone. It rained after snowing and today was pretty warm compared to last night. Woohoo no shoveling!!

Other than that, I am doing more puppy napping and hanging out tonight and tomorrow. Maybe we will go out to eat for my birthday. Not too worried about it. I am not exactly thrilled to be turning a year older with everything that is going on lately.

Anyway, here is my lame post for the day. :-)

P.S. Today officially begins NaBloPoMo for March!