Let me preface this by saying, YES I know I am overweight and I do not blame one single person for getting me to this state except myself. I also know what I have to do in order to NOT be overweight anymore.
That being said, what the fuck is up with fucking FOOTWEAR not being big enough for me?!?!?!?! This is like the fifth time I have gone to Payless to try and get the super cheap boots they have there that are cool looking and appear to be actually comfortable. I actually saw this pair of boots on someone in Pennsylvania recently and went up to them to ask where they got them. I was so excited when I heard Payless because I knew they would be affordable! Their prices are so great!! And every time…EVERY SINGLE TIME…I leave empty handed and defeated. When will I fucking learn that fat people can’t buy boots at regular stores.
Does this make one bit of sense? NO. It’s not like I am morbidly obese, one of those people you pass on the street and say to your friends, “If I ever get that fat, shoot me!” I am not a sloppy fat person, I do not have rolls of fat on every part of my body, I have defined, if fleshy, body parts. I have defined ankles, no sagging fat that hangs off my lower legs down to my ankles. But I am overweight. So the fucking boots DON’T FIT ME!!!!! They fit my feet. Sure. But try to zip them up and they get about a third of the way up and will not go any further because, apparently, my calves are HUGE.
What the fuck is up with this? It’s not like they make fat footwear – I checked! There is one “womens’ sizes” website that I found that carried shoes. And it’s not even clear if the boots have an extra large leg for the fat girls. I mean, BOOTS ARE SERIOUSLY IN STYLE THIS FALL – WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?! Everyone skinny gets to be in style and us fat folk have to fucking sit on the sidelines and look fat in ill-fitting, ugly clothes. It’s bad enough that I have to pay an average of 20% more for my clothing because I have to shop at the fat girl stores (although I can’t really complain about Lane Bryant because they have incredible coupons that give you up to $75 off a $150 + purchase and I have had purchases that come out to something like $15-$20 an item.) But I can’t even fucking buy boots because I am too fat.
It just pisses me off. Give me a break and please don’t comment that I should just lose weight and everything will be fine, because that will just piss me off more.
EDIT: P.S. I got similarly pissed off after the big Fall TJ Maxx ad campaign with a photo of a chick wearing a LONG olive green cardigan sweater, it's like a sweater-coat. So I go there to see if they have them, and they do.....in XXS, XS and S (yes, that's extra, extra small - it's like a size ZERO, which does exist.) One rack in the store with the fat girl sizes and everything on it is hideous. This type of thing is where discrimination against obesity becomes clear. Not in people saying shit about fat people. In practical, every day life. Once again, I will say that it's not okay for everyone to be so fat, the world should not change so that I can dress my fat ass in the same fashions as everyone else. But it is still frustrating.